I'll never be the same

I wrote this about how I am feeling about love life and such right now. I hope it makes some sort of sense...

The air is getting colder

the blood in my veins, thick

Your words echo in my mind

my stomach turns sick

You showed your true colors

Every shade of black

All the love I gave to you

I can never get back

I'll never be whole again

You broke me down

and took pieces of me

I gave and I gave

But you never thought twice

I'll never be the same

What kind of coward are you?

Are you proud?

I thought you'd be different

Now I hear the truth loud

Trust is almost impossible cuz

I always see you

Even in the face of another

who would to me be true

The time spent with you

doesn't compare

To the years of recovery

I still must fare

There is no pill, shot syrup

or recipe

That could ever cure

what you've done to me

I know that I don't deserve it

But how could that be true?

When I got hurt by, of all people

YOU

You said you'd never leave,

you left

Said you were truthful,

you lied

Swore your love could never end,

its over

Promised to never hurt me

But everyday I've cried

I'll never be the same